Sunday, September 28, 2008

Longing to Blog

I've been wanting to blog everyday this past week but the lack of internet makes that difficult, especially at the wee hours of the night when my urges explode (and I'm still talking about blogging).

Anyway, it has been a full week here in the Bay Area and I must say I am adjusting well so far. I guess it makes things easier when you have someone you know to make that transition, but I'm prepping myself to getting to know new people and exploring the world. My 1st day of work is tomorrow and I am excited/frightened. Excited because it is the start of my independent and frightened because I'm scared that for some reason I am going to fuck up this opportunity and lose my job. I have dreams of that happening.

This blog feels so rushed because I can't be here long and I need to get to Target before it closes. But I will be back. Hopefully on Wednesday.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

The New Facebook

These petitions and groups about the new facebook amuse me. It reminds me about how everyone went crazy about the news-feed and mini-feed.

First of all, stop inviting me to these damn groups. I like the new facebook. I enjoy change.

Like every new thing it takes time to get used to. I've been using the new facebook since they started letting us use it and forgot that it was there was an old facebook. I just don't get all these complaints because most of them just seem like they are mad over stupid things like "justification" and "empty space" and "location changes".

This is why I LIKE the new facebook:

--Many things are more accessible. For example, I like the bar on the bottom with the applications, photos, groups, etc. I don't have to go to my home page just to get to those links. Also, I like all the little links placed everywhere like the "change profile picture" on the profile picture. It saves the trouble from having to go through multiple links to execute something. In general, everything is easier to get to and easier to find.

--I love tabs. I loved it when I saw them on Mozilla Firefox and I love it on facebook, and they're everywhere. Everything is categorized so that I can go exactly to where I want to go on a friend's page. I always hated having to wait for everyone's applications to load, or scrolling all the way down just to write on someone's wall. It feels cleaner.

--I like that you can make friends lists. I actually don't know if this wasn't here before, but I barely discovered it during the new facebook. But I like that I can check the status and updates of specific friends and if I want to consistently invite a group of people to an event, I don't have to make a formal facebook group. I can just use the friends lists.

--I'm happy finally allowed me to edit who can view my notes. Notes can be privatized for certain people and that way not all my notes are public on facebook.

--Like MySpace, I can choose who shows up on my friends short list. This way I don't have to individually type in each friend's name to get to their page. Instead, they are all grouped on my wall/info tab of my profile.

--I don't know if this was on the old facebook either, but I like that I can that if want to see more or less news topics from a certain friend.

--I can finally comment directly on a friend's status instead of writing on their wall. It's cool because now you know what that comment was related to when looking back, and you can start conversations about a status among multiple people.

--I think the new wall/mini-feed is interesting. I like that it's tabbed by all posts, post by me, and posts my others. But I remember before, I liked how I could look at only certain types of posts on the mini-feed. But it seems trivial now, haha.

--This was definitely here before, but I LOVE the mobile application. I wish I discovered it earlier. I ended up deleting a lot of my camera phone pictures because I didn't have space, but I could have uploaded them onto facebook, bah!

--The new facebook is even more Flash-enhanced. The thing I liked about facebook compared to MySpace was that it worked on Flash and it didn't have to reload all new pages every time you clicked on a new link. It is even more Flash, such as the new photos and video pages, all the tabs, etc.




Hahaha, I just felt like putting this out there. The new facebook is awesome. All I have to say to the haters is, be open-minded. If you still refuse, I'm interested on hearing what you have to say about the new facebook.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Full-Fledged Independence

Boy, does independence feel liberating.

Couple weeks before I leave for Union City and it's time to cut all financial ties. Closing the joint checking account to open my own. My own car insurance plan and gas card. Leaving the Verizon family plan for a single line plan. Paying for my own rent. And of course, making my own income. And it feels great.

I look on how I was raised, and though I think I've come out fine (I hope), I don't know if I would raise my own kid the same way. I guess you can say I lived a privileged life. I got a brand new car when I was 16. Never had to work a single day. In fact, I was told by my parents not to work and to focus on school both in high school and in college. That was until I realized I needed to get an internship to boost up my resume. Everything was paid for: rent, gas, phone, food, clothes, luxuries. But it's not like I went on ridiculous shopping sprees or frivolously spent money wherever I went. When it comes down to it though, money was never a problem.

But I dont' know if that's the mentality I want my kids to have. But I do want my kids to understand what sacrifice means, what privilege means, the concept of financial responsibility, and hardworking character. Maybe my parents were lucky; they didn't necessarily have a problem child on their hands because I took the initiative to understand the above for myself despite not enduring a struggling lifestyle. But then again, maybe they taught me those values in other ways of which I cannot think at the top of my head.

Parenting is such a complex, I must say, art. It is always a question how much control do we have over a child's development from their infancy to adulthood.

Anyway, back to the original topic. I'm excited to be financially independent. I think I should acquaint myself with all this finance language, especially in dealing with my future like 401k's and all that good stuff. I'm going to make myself a rich man. Through what career, you might not have asked. Well, that's still up in the air. I'll save that for another post.

TV SEASON is BACK!

I'm uber excited for the upcoming TV season because I finally feel like I will be able to keep up with them. On my list so far: Heroes, House, and Fringe. I'll probably slip in the Office, Grey's Anatomy, Project Runway, and Jon and Kate plus 8 here and there, haha.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

The Namesake

There has not been a movie which I've seen that has painted it so well. Though it intricately revolves itself around a culture which I cannot call my own, the movie nonetheless details how inseparable we are by the mere fact that our families have immigrated to this country. While the experiences are unique to our own, we cannot hide from the sacrifice, the cold, and the pain we share.

I have heard this story times beyond countless, drowned and numbed by iteration, but this movie surpasses them all. It felt real and that's what sets it apart; I was not watching but immersed in someone's life. Through its subtleties, I was emotionally captured. The tiniest detail, a snapshot of a family snapshot, brought me to tears. It was not through dramatic arguments or blatant references to culture or identity. I could feel their internal struggles from their facial expressions alone and snapshots of their household. It was as if they were etched into the hollow walls. The storytelling, the filmmaking, simply incredible.

I remember my junior English teacher expressing her distaste for television and movies because they took away from the imagination of literature. But honestly no offense to her, movies possess the same power in a different medium. How can one not appreciate its beauty.

Monday, September 8, 2008

Numb and Uninspired

All week, I've been wanting to write in my blog but nothing seems worthy to write about. Last month, I was writing at least once every 2 days but now the last time I wrote was one week ago. I am uninspired and craving inspiration. That says something to me.

I have one thing that I want to say. I'm numb and I don't know why. I want to feel a certain way but it doesn't show, leading me to believe that possibly I am only lying to myself. Do I want to feel a certain way only because that's how I "should" feel, not because I actually do feel that way?

Monday, September 1, 2008

Officially,

my last day in this dwelling often referred to Sean Taylor.

Many memories, I must say, come from this place. It's ups and downs, the absolutely amazing and the daringly dramatic, it's hard to say goodbye.

Well, I guess it's back to LA. The place I used to associate with home. But home is where the heart is. And that is everywhere. So I guess that makes me a nomad. Off to the rest of the adventures of my life.