Contemplative Shower

It has been two weeks and we still don't have internet tomorrow. Crossing fingers, I hope there are no complications tomorrow and we finally get internet. We'll see.

Anyway, because I still don't have internet at home, I have to creatively find ways to entertain myself. I was on my desktop computer and I came across my AIM logs from years ago. What first caught my eye was the fact that there are all these people who logged onto their screennames on my computer and their conversations are logged. These conversations are from 2-3 years ago, but how evil it would still be to tap into their privacy and read up on these conversations, especially between specific people, muahahaha. But I don't think I will out of sheer respect for them. But I guess into the rare circumstance, I have blackmail material (haha I'm just kidding).

What probably hit me the most were conversations with people, I guess you can say, who I've lost contact with over the years. Two in particular. It tore me apart. I feel like I lost some of the most real and intriguing friends I've ever met. You know, I will always meet new people and new friends all over the place. There are those friends who you can meet anywhere. And there are those who you know you will never find someone like them. They are the latter. All I want to tell them is I miss them.